I seem to have these periods of ups and downs. I haven’t been able to put my finger on it exactly. I know that I will be fine, that I am fine now. I’m not sure if it’s just the emotional trauma of the word Cancer, or if it’s something else I’m not identifying yet.
A friend unknowingly taught me a very important lesson this morning. She said, “I believe you were on the path to wellness long before you even know of this journey.” It was a shift in thinking I needed in that moment. Marianne Williamson said “We can always choose to perceive things differently. You can focus on what’s wrong in your life, or you can focus on what’s right”. When you aren’t aligned with good things and wellness, you can’t see what that good is. At times when I have my downs, I can see the good and move towards it. It’s a deliberate decision to choose good over the bad. I am grateful for many things at this moment. I’m grateful that my husband for perceived a shift was needed and reminded me that I was a couple months late on having my annual mammogram; I am grateful that Dr. Saber decided to play on the cautious side. Even though at the time he thought everything was probably fine, something in him made the shift towards good and he made the decision that based on my lack of mammo history, he really would like to biopsy those cells; I’m grateful for whoever that person was who cancelled their physical in November and allowed me to move mine in their place before I started a new job, otherwise I probably would have put it off until the spring when I had paid time off; I’m grateful that it was caught in the extreme early stages and that I will live. Some woman aren’t so lucky. A hundred things could have gone wrong and created a different outcome. But fortunately, being aligned with Wellness created the circumstances where a hundred things went right instead. For that I am extremely thankful! <3